The going trend of what I seem to keep blogging about is McCall's job prospects. and if anyone has had to go through these processes more than once like we have, you know exactly what I mean when I say this is the epitome of my frustrations. They all take so long, they tell you nothing, and take up so much time and energy. I swear if I didn't have to do all this right now I would have the energy to run a marathon or something. It's just sucking me dry. I am willing to do all of it because I love my husband and it will be worth it once it's over. But just all the testing, interviewing, packets, phone calls etc. It's wearing me down. I get so stressed out over every little thing and worry and analyze every detail that it takes so much out of me it seems like. It may seem stupid to most and I honestly can say that once he is an officer- I feel like it will be a vast improvement. Which is kind of backwards. Usually having him in such a position would be the thing to cause the stress, At this point though- I will just be grateful that he got chosen, and is being given an opportunity and just be grateful that we have gotten to where we want to be. I will always worry about his safety and his well-being while out on the job. But he will be doing what he loves and will be happy doing it everyday. And the time, sacrifice, and stress we go through right now for the next few months will make us appreciate it when he gets it. And not take it for granted just because it is a scary field to go into.
So most of you heard I got jury duty. And I got picked to be on the jury too. Out of all the luck in the world right? there were 8 of us chosen to decide if this guy what guilty or not guilty of 2 counts against him. We can talk about it freely now that the case is over. I just felt like the whole thing was a waste though to be honest. The guy admitted to the police that he was on drugs, that the place they found them was his, and that the guns were his. Which were the 2 charges he faced- guns and drugs basically- to keep it simple. The only thing I got out of the whole experience was a hole in my wallet for one- from missing work. and Some advice to McCall. To write every single itty- bitty detail down when writing a police report. The things this guy was charged with happened 5 years ago. and all of the witnesses were police officers and were asked to remember the smallest, most insignificant details- it was insane. So to keep the story short- he was guilty. So I'm sure he will be going away to jail for a long time. They didn't let us hear the sentencing so I'm not really sure what will happen to him. I felt really uncomfortable the whole time though- I am definitely not meant to be anyones judge. and I really didn't want to have that responsibility. Glad it's over and glad I won't have to do it again for a long time- if ever.
School starts in a few weeks. So excited- NOT! We have been enjoying the extra time we've had this summer to spend together. I will pretty much have to re-introduce myself to McCall when the semester is over since we will pretty much NEVER get to see each other til basically Christmas. Sad day. finally got up the nerve and got off my lazy butt to go take the accuplacer test I needed to take. I didn't study or anything and walked out placing into 1010. Which is what I needed. I was pretty happy with myself for saying that I totally suck at math. I always have. and I haven't been in a math class for over 5 years. So for me, 1010 was pretty impressive. My schedule is now complete for the fall. 11 credits. It's totally gonna suck. And is burning another hole in my wallet to try and afford it. 11 credit hours at weber right now is more than 14 credits costed me for my first semester at the U. Ridiculous. Totally worth every penny in the end though. There is nothing more valuable to spend your money on than an education- in my opinion.
Frustrated is my mood of the month. Today is the start of a new month though. One that is gonna bring us great things- I just know it! I am grateful for all the blessings in my life and for all the oppotunities that are given to me daily. I have many things in my life that are amazing and if I tried to count my blessings "one by one" we could be here all day. I know that I use my blog as an outlet of my worries and frustration but I don't want people to think that I don't realize all the great things I have surrounding me at every moment. I have truly been blessed. Putting everything down into words is just my own form of therapy- it helps me sort through my thoughts. I always feel like when I write down a frustration- it's no longer a part of me- I've put it on the computer- and now the computer gets to deal with it... haha. wow I sound kinda crazy..but that works for me in some weird way. Thanks to all the friends and family who are always here for us. I am so excited to have my family growing at every corner. We have a new nephew coming this year- (YAY!!) and hopefully many more in the future as well. Can't wait to meet them all.
So here's to August- may you be even better than July :) :)
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