...Someday...

Here I sit.... home alone for the weekend.

McCall is off to Vegas with the boys. oh but don't worry, I made the most of it. I went and got my favorite chinese food, rented a chic flick and am totally vegging out. Lazy right? I have alot of plans for tomorrow though. I am going to get up early :) most likely.. get ready and go to church like a good girl, when I get home I must clean the house from all the accumulating filth, re-arrange my living room, and put together a huge treadmill that ways 100 times more than me without killing myself with it falling on me or something. wish me luck! I have a whole new set of tools from my daddy and am a totally capable woman. Who needs men right? I am going to do this and I will get it done right! I fixed a dang toilet once (for those who haven't heard the story- it was monumental!) and I am the handy woman of the house! so expect a post about an amazing treadmill soon :)

That is my new ambition. To get back into shape. I am totally getting soft- don't try and tell me I'm not- I AM! I have gained some weight in the last little while- nothing extreme but enough for me to care- and I'm refusing to make excuses. I had a doctors appointment on monday that may have brought up sort of a reason for it but still.. it is my fault and I need to be more active. Hence.. the treadmill! :) so hopefully I can keep up my motivation and run alot more.

Another thing... disregard the last post. No more Morgan county for us. They decided that since they had such a high volume of applicants that they were no longer going to accept applications from non-POST cetified applicants. So dumb.. but whatever. I wasn't overly excited at the thought of living out there so maybe it is just a blessing in disguise. Many other places top my list of places I want to go- so the search continues for our next adventure. No one knows where life take us and I am excited at the endless possibilities that lie ahead.

Life is good otherwise. Crazy but good. I feel myself becoming more and more detached from everyone though and that makes me sad. People all around me are getting married, having babies, getting divorces, buying houses, graduating college and on and on. I just feel like I'm not a part of it anymore. It's my own doing I guess but still- it kind of makes me sad. I will try to be better. I always love hearing from everyone- so anyone reading- shoot me a text! right now- do it! :)

I miss the days where nothing mattered more than what I WANTED to do. Not what I HAVE to do. I was so excited to get to be an adult and now I never have any time for the things I love. Part of growing up I guess. The internet has become a rather large outlet for me- which is sad.. but still true. I can still feel a part of other peoples lives but still have the busy life I lead. One day I will get past all of this. College will be done.. Careers will be started.. children will be had.. a life will be lived.. those are my "somedays"

one day they will be my reality. Patience. not something I can pratice very easily. I am getting better at it though out of necessity. I hope that one day I won't have to wish for the "someday" to get here.